I am falling, for what seems like an eternity.
Being weightless for so long I know no more my up from my down, my left from my right, just me. As I “sink” into this dark abyss, this dark void.
It reminds me of the torment my soul has been going through for so long.
But it is strange because as I am falling deeper and deeper into his dark abyss
I look up and see a faint light, the light of the other side, and the side to my happiness.
And it pains me, as I cannot defy the gravitational effect of this earthly world,
As sometimes I wish I could ditch this body to reach my happiness
But that’s not the way I want to go, even as my lonely soul cries for another.
Iit is strange because as I am falling I am crying,
But not a heavy cry just the tears won’t stop flowing out of my body like the water flows out of a dam. As my tears flow, I see them dissolve into tears of light that tease me as I fall further and further it is weird because with each passing year I feel a load of pressure leaving my body making it easier to be alone.
But this only happens in the world in my mind a world I am afraid of,
But since I can only cry in the other world I always feel the heavy and constant pressure of the
So it never gets easier but I know that if I could just shed one tear,
I know the pressure of this world would ease, but to no avail, I cannot cry,
When I try I feel my soul tingle and it tries to cry for me but I just can’t.
It feels like if I cry the sensation of falling through an empty void would disappear and the sensation of someone looking for me, looking for a lost soul like mine would disappear, and with it, the hope of being caught by the light, being caught by my happiness would go away so I just fall deeper and deeper into an endless empty void forever.
- Devore McIntosh